~~lover or pretender?~~

She asked me once,
"Can I go to find my new happiness?"
I answered,
"Yes, you can."
She asked me again,
"How about you?"
I simply smiled and said,
"Go on, you're my happiness remember?"

Ouch!!! Oh! No worries..this is just another message on line..yeah, just another thought I choose to share.

Now, is this a sacrifice? stupidity? helplessness? loVE?..or a combination??
This is more of a love post. I should post this on my deaf site, but, I guess I should leave that comatosed site for while (hehee). I bet most readers would vote for "combination"(?)..or.. (?)

Is it really possible to swallow the pain and be happy for her at the same time? Hmmm..this may sound a usual love story any one can relate. Do we really need to say "I'm happy for you" when deep inside we're breaking? Often, hmmm..maybe. Why? 'Coz we wanted to show the world that we're not badly affected of such rejection or yet we don't want them to feel guilty of not feeling the same way. At times we need to fool ourselves so as to lessen the pain. But the pain won't be gone unless we face the fact that we are hurt and our hearts are seriously wounded.

It is not wrong to love someone who doesn't love you. Still, it is not fair to stuck ourselves with the blue feeling and pretend we are numb.

Falling in love doesn't guarantee being happy 'til the end. It is more of risking a fragile organ on other's sensitivity.

~~beanizer broken (?)


Didz-W said...

Totally agreed with u on this Bean :) but to answer your Q, well I'd say it's the stupidity of love.u know love is blind..the bla, bla, bla sayings..
I guess there's nothing much we can do abt it, I mean when u said that u're happy for her/him, and u know actually deep inside u're still hurt. we say all this kinda silly things that's bcuz we still have love for them. I think :) and maybe it doesn't matter how much we are being hurt, as long as them is happy. we don't really mind to bear the hurt, in fact we are willing to keep the pain just to make them happy and not worry about u..only god knows and understand how exactly we feel for them :)
Hope I'm making sense..

An Ordinary Gal said...

It is neither a stupidity nor a sacrifice..It is just LOVE.

hmmm someone loves her..she can't love him and She loves Someone...he does not love her...strange na? It is all a part of Life..that's y we should Love ourselves more than anyone. We will be happy in every condition :)

P.S :why Beanzier is broken?
try to get out u will out...if u will keep on thinking you will trap in it it more...

beanizer_05 said...

Wowiee!! What a serious long comment from the whizzy didzy!..and it made me sssssmile!..ofcourse, you are making sense..yeah we should be willing to keep the pain if we want to see them happy..huhuhuhu..what can we do f they wanted to marry noh??..oh well, we have nothing to do about it..so yeah..love can be stupid..well said didi!!

beanizer_05 said...

oh! 1 vote for stupidity, another for love..these made me really smile...

@ xtra-ordinary gal:
You're right too:) We have to love ourselves more for us to be truly happy..hehee,,no, i'm not totally broke..i won't trap myself in that..hey, thanks!

now, it's kinda complicated..my readers react and understand well..
beanizer is happy:)

Didz-W said...

Haha! Hey Bean! You're not talking abt me that's gonna get married soon, are u? :P...oh well...u can't do anything abt it, I'm gonna get married anyway. hahaha! :P

beanizer_05 said...

hahahah! no crazee..it's not you and definitely i won't blog something like this (in case it's you) knowing you are a reader of this site!! heheee..as i've said it's just another thought not my story..yeah yeah..i'm gonna sing on ur wed remember??..no problemo..we are fwends! it'll be a lifetime contract..no need for bonds and ties..no complications for bean! that would be cooler! weheeeeee...

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

i really agree to you about this "It is not wrong to love someone who doesn't love you. Still, it is not fair to stuck ourselves with the blue feeling and pretend we are numb.

sigh...youre really great on making me realize these things :)

(P.S. if you'll reply to this comment..pls. put it in my blog's comment box so that i can update my comments :D)

Rml said...

1 vote for stupidity, 1 for love... what if I wanna vote for something different??...
I, too, have already said things like that "I'm happy for you". But I've already said "how do u expect me to be happy for you?!" as well. And none of them made me feel any better.
Nowadays, I say "I'm happy for you" - but not cus I don't want them to feel guilty. Cus u know what? They don't. If they're w/ someone else already, chances are they're quite far away from feeling guilty about u! Sad, but true. Humans are extremely selfish like that. I say "I'm happy for you" because saying the opposite is petty; and when I'm finally over it, I'll regret having been so small. Hence, I wish them happiness because of me, cus that's the person I wanna be. A better one than I am right now.

(I know it hurts Bean, but I'm on the other side of the world! Our love is just impossible! U gotta let US go!... =P)

beanizer_05 said...

@'lil ayu:
oh, you will only realize it when you have encountered one..hehe..but im glad you agreed on that line..

beanizer_05 said...

@ms. robi:
so, you're voting for..??
haha! Right. They won't feel guilty at all when all they know is they're happy with them. Hence, we should value ourselves more :)

and hahhahaa!! what's with that ( ) line eh??..ah..do i have to go to BRazil to make it possible for us? And i will abduct you like how Paris did to Helen??..Then we will make "Robbie of Brazil"..yaY!!..sounds fun..wait i'll buy a ticket..

Rml said...

@bean: hehe, guess I vote for "ourselves"! No use doing anything for anybody unless we can take good care of ourselves first...

Hahahahahha, "Robbie: the face that launched a thousand Beans"!
(Ok, now that just sounds like I'm preparing a salad or something...)

beanizer_05 said...

just as i thought!-you won't choose among the given choices. But you said it well. No use applying it on anybody if we can't do t on ourselves..perfect! Now, i'm learning..

Heheeeee..and what do you call that salad eh?..i'm starving now..

ambiguous_angel said...

is this someone i know?
hope not.

beanizer_05 said...

huh??..it's purely fiction..why..you know someone with the same story??..

Leona said...

Situations like this I wonder what the guy is feeling, really.

'Cause sometimes it's possible to let go out of love, but it still doesn't change the fact that it hurts.

beanizer_05 said...

@ leona:
A guy would say to himself "It's fine, why don't you find a better one?"..but sometimes distractions can't ease the pain..