~~night love~~

It's been 13 months, 19 days and nights now.

I am still but HAPPY☻ 

 "your love takes me to the cloud 9, look!"

and..b'coz i l♥ve youuu,,
 "i''ll learn every way just to keep you with me"
Love comes to those who believe it.
And yes, it did come..in perfect timing.

I knew it came.. when I felt your strength inside me, so powerful.
when I wake up with earphones on both ears, and i can still hear your voice.

when I sing a love song in the shower, unaware I am late for work.
when i am pulling the working hours its end, wanting to get home earliest.
when i wanted to share an ice cream with you and kiss your lips when its melting..

Tonight I realize how lucky I am
Tonight I can't help but fall in love deeper with you
Tonight I'm certain you have caught my helpless he♥rt
Tonight..it's raining again..
and it keeps on reminding me..
of the overflowing love I have for you..

♪ ♫ ♪ ♥ ♥ ♥♫ ♫ ♪ ♫♥ ♥ ♥ ♪ ♫ ♪

"look hon, i teach puppy groovy dancing!"
how about--may i have this kind of dance with you??
♥ ♥ ♥

beautifully sinking inside~~

The typical me lives with music at least an hour a day.
Either to screw a loose nerve in the morning or to loosen a tight day. 
Preferably with headset's on.
Preferably with no one's around to share the other piece
(that's how selfish I am with my earpiece!)
I definitely love to feel the vibration of the notes locked in my brain nerves that you seem unreachable at that spur moment of time and you were just like hearing deaf of the real world.
An awesome feeling.

But I am human.
Still a normal human.
I don't wanna be locked in a single state
of being---
at the same time, I don't wanna let
the Music bored itself dealing ONLY with precious me (though I don't refuse the idea)

Music has lots of flavors. And we have different tastes.
There are many songs I keep playing,
there are few I remain loyal to--

Days ago, I heard this song playing in my pal's celfone,
It made me stop and ask "What's that song?"
Had it pass to my cel.
I listened, "It's good"
I played it again when I was on my way to office.
I googled for the vid with lyrics..
Listened and read the lines 3 times (i still can't memorize the song)
I am here, updating my blog ,
(and you were there reading, yey!)
I am in front of my paperworks
Boss approx. 30 steps away (ssshhhhh)
So, I was saying, this song made me stop..
And it made me think..
I will include this on the most important day 
Every time I hear this, the words simply sink inside me..
so heartening, gripping my fragile organ ♥, 
causing the rain on the windows of my soul..

I need to practice to perfect this ♫♪♫♪ 






i knew there is something special today..
no! not special! not just special!
it's important..reeallly important! 

You agree with me Pichu?? right? righttttt??
go on! clap clap shake shake
yeah! yeah! you got super energy huh!!

 let's rock 'n roll!!
i look tough with my diapy!
oh yeah!
would you want me to sing our love song honey??!
uhuh! uhuh!

or you wanna  speak about my---
fow youuuuu???

I'm not the most romantic you know!
But ok, let me try..

But before I speak my heart, 
can i ask a 'lil request???
kiss meee first

see how you move my 'lil nerves??
mwah! mwah!

ok, now let me speak now..


It's been a year now since I fell in love with you. Been a year now and I never regretted keeping you inside my heart. I never imagined I could fall in-love again this strong. And this another chance I gave myself to love truly is one of the best things I gifted my whole being.

I believed in true love and now I believe more. I trusted love and now I'm giving my trust to you more. I'm scared to get hurt again, yes I really do. but despite this fear, my love prevails dominantly for you. I am the happiest now. It makes me think, MAYBE I am indeed a 'lil good person yesterday, 'coz God blessed me a wonderful person with a beautiful soul. 

Days may pass and we may not know what the future promises. Yet, I will do more than my best to keep this tie between us unbreakable. I told you I am sweet  since birth *hehe* but I won't do a crazy act of love just to anyone. I love you, everything about you, no less.
Happy Anniversary Hon! 
Thanks for keeping me alive.
I love you sooooo much ♥♥♥

I wanna tell you something...
the weather is crazy here
but i don't hate it..

no mater how many tears 
the heaven will pour on us..

my heart would speak the same words for you..

I will keep it safe 
I will keep it strong..

yah! yah!

Only for you....

it's harder to find a fresh flower that will never dry up..
just as my love for you.♥

but it's harder ..
to train a teddy say I LOVE YOU..
this one I DIDN'T allow to sleep until he memorized the 3 words..
Instead he wrote them in his pillow..
ah..eh..don't worry about the 'epileptic' gesture..
i guess he's still fine..
and i never fail to remind him to add more milk in his coffee..
i am innocent! i didn't harm teddy! pwomise!

ok, since i can't be there..
i am sending my heart 
to meet yours on our DAY..

I pray to you my Lord,
Please make her smile with this post..
and please remind her I am..
always cute..

Are you alright?
Oh! You dance vewy vewy good huh!
Did i make you smilee??

I   L ☺V E    Y O U U U ♥♥


(peter pan w/ a mix of robinhood) 


~she's most beautiful~

I guess it's destiny. We were born on exactly the same number. Our months sit next to each other. Did God perfectly designed our stars?
or Purposely MEANT That Way?

Whichever the reason is, I am HAPPY.

Some may speak of their timeless serendipity. Let them tell 'til they lose their voices. What matters is --THEY ARE HAPPY..JUST LIKE ME.
I can't make this post longer. Maybe it's a fact that you'll be lost for words when you're just too happy..and you're holding your heart from getting off from your chest.
Crazy. Yes. I have been a lot of times.
Does it matter? A man can't live here on earth without getting crazy- AT LEAST ONCE!
If he claims he's always been SANE in love, I personally doubt his psychological condition.

I have posted this song along time ago in the blogger land, I wish to dedicate this to a very important woman in my life who made my every day extra-special.


I L o v E Y o U ♥♥♥

bitter surprises

Here in my virtual world, I met different people, unique personalities..some passed by, some stayed for months, while a few remained closer to me even outside the blog community. We built a virtual world where truest friendship lives. They became a part of my daily routine, a sweet part of my so-called personal life.

"Look Bro, we got more fans!"

At this time, I wanna share with you one of the most precious chapters of my virtual-personal world..
It's all about---
I met one very good friend in bloggers community.

Fewest facts about him:

* I used to call him my "devil-cupid", if ever you wonder how I met my new love, it's his doing. he and his cousin made me realize how I love her.
* He's a blogger who doesn't own a single blogsite but a very faithful commentor on my posts and my hon's pieces.

* He's responsible of my inbox-overload.

* He's my older version, we had the same story.

* He's my big brother.

" Bro, i'm not really small, am i??"

= From the time I met him, I knew I found a clown. Yes, a clown. He wore a big smile on his face, he teased, laughed..my ideal playmate! He played along with me in bloggers. He teased me most often, he even told my should-be secrets!
"Bro! brain freeeezze!!"

"Ok Bro, so this is our hide out.. You sure the girls won't find us here??"

= But behind this crazy comedian is a faithful husband, a loving father. Such character every man should possess. My brother found his true love. She was his life. I can attest to how much he loved her. His queen, his bestfriend. He told me his love story several times and he gave me advices of dealing with true love. I admire him everytime he proved his love for her.

Until one day, God took her away. He didn't know she had a heart ailment. She kept it 'til her last breath. She passed away just last month. I felt sorry for my bro. He tried to overcome his sadness and lived for the sake of their kids. He was a strong man. He managed to show he's moving on, that he must move on like any matured responsible man and father.


I was on a trip to celebrate my birthday with my friends, planning to come back with my pics to share here. I wanted to make a happy post like I used to in this site..but an unknown tragedy happened the day before my bday.

As narrated by a friend (his brother-in-law), my brother was rushed to the hospital. Two bottles of pills comforted him in his longing for his wife. I can't believe it happened. We were just exchanging mails few days before my birthday. He poured to me his grief and regrets. I knew he missed her so much and he can't win her back from God.

Yesterday, a wrong info was relayed to us. I cried upon knowing that my Bro is gone. A certain bad person made us believe Lance was dead. What a stupid attempt to fool us!

His bro-in-law clarified everything now. Lance has a brain damaged and a part of his body is paralyzed. I'm sad of my Bro's condition, yet, I'm happy he's alive and will soon kick that bad a**!!!

"I'm strong Bro, don't worry my baby muscles are the firmest!"

This post is dedicated
to my blogger friend and Big Bro -

Big Brother,

I don't know how to explain my sadness of your condition. I used to mislook your messages in my inbox due to my busy routine. I used just to smile on your advices 'coz you put a lot of effort to convince me everyday. I'm sorry for getting mad at those times when you're trying to push plans on me. I was angry but you didn't leave me.
Now, I checked my inbox. Wishing yesterday was only a bad dream. I was waiting for your message but you didn't come, I'm disappointed.

I know I hate what you did..and I wish you won't do it again..don't make me super-mad!

**Let this song be a reminder..each of us deserves a New Beautiful Life..we just have to be open
~~this song is specially dedicated to my Hon, Gracey and Big Bro.

Let me just say..
"Will you please wear this Big Bro?"

Beanizer: "For your recovery bro, I'll do a sacrifice,
I WILL BE CHOCO-LESS until you get well"
(pls recover as fast as possible)


hmmm..just a special day

When I was months younger, I tried to find the better me. I look at myself trying to figure out what I really wanted. But can't see the soul I was searching.

"Soulmate, is that you?
Well, you look cute too"

Until I found you.. and started to know you each passing day..
You only know how to make me feel special,nothing more..

"Promise, we won't get cold honey.."

"Your powers touch me in every way"

"As i can feel how you sweep me off my diapy"

Your presence tells the beauty of life. You make everyone love you dearly. And I don't know how you do it..but I love how it is..

"I want to grow with you in every possible way"


it tells everything..
(p/s: to the couple who made this, i'll trade my lollie for the rent, ok?:)


"Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change

If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same"

"I want to make my dreams come true
through you"

"Oh..our little darlings.."

You know why I love number 8 the more??
it's because..*counting*

"It consists the perfect figures
I want to tell you everyday"

"Hon, can you hear my heart there?"

BEANIE: "Sun bathing is still best for babies
until.. buttburn"