Dearest EARTH OX,
The moments I had with you for the last 365 days taught me so much things in life. Moments that exposed me to sweet and bitter realities that the earlier years failed to teach me.
You approached me with your first days and months with a broken heart. I was never that lonely facing you as the new year. I never wanted your other days to come ‘coz all I can feel was the pain lurking inside me. I wished to drown my whole being so as to escape from this damaged self. But you never gave up on me. I was helpless when you let the air enter my nostrils each day and pushing the sun rays to touch my dead soul. And so I have nothing to do but wait for your uncertain presents.
But living your air and sunshine led me to boredom. I knew I have to get along with your days despite the odds. I knew I had to be numb and deal the yesterday’s memory with passivity for my own survival. And I knew I did succeed.
I succeed- I knew it. I was braver enough of accepting the just reality that “not all things are made for us”. We have to let them go. Not just because we wanted them to be happy, but because we needed to free ourselves from impossible dreams.
I realized one valuable thing you taught me:
LOVE would never be enough if you’re not willing to invest TIME on it. And TIME will never be the best proof of love if you wanted to escape the hurting.
I may not be an expert when it comes to love and life. I never wanted to be one. I only want to learn and understand their vague meaning.
I thank you for giving me the chance to smile, cry, laugh, grin and learn again in your 8,760hours. I’m grateful for helping me realize the value of friendship, relationship and self-respect.
Please whisper to the METAL TIGER to keep everyone safe and happy for another 12 long months.
Dearest EARTH OX,