--found in lines--


"Having been committed to love someone, means losing the opportunity of having others to love you..so be sure the person you're committed to, deserve your love and worthy of your sacrifice.."


i was stuck in my inbox and found this message..
It made me think for a while. True? MAybe. Yes. It's true.
It sucks when you're stuck with your commitment on one person and realize you're but a fool of your own emotions. Such that the most won't take the risk of trusting her/his own heart on someone she/he desires to be with for a certain moment.

It's not wrong to give much love and attention to someone.
It's not a crime to fall so crazy in love.
It's not forbidden to give everything you wanted to make someone feel important.... it's just that sometimes..even at the right time...
we have found the "mistaken" one.


~beanizer
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--fixing the nerves--

Sometimes when I don't feel like doing anything, i just need a little therapy..like listening to this one..



"'CAUSE EVERYTHING IS NEVER AS IT SEEMS"


bean's 'lil sharing:)~~
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--beautiful radiance--


i was hesitant to put this flower in my blog (hehe),,thinking twice, thrice..ok, here it goes..thanks to sweet 'lil AYU and Angel in May for giving me this chance to thank the amazingly wonderful people (including them).

RULES:
-Put the award on your blog or in your post
-Pass the award to 12 bloggers
-Link the nominees within your post
-Let the nominees know by commenting on their blog
-Share the love and link to the person who gave it to you


So I am passing this GIFT with a short note to these beautiful people WHO BRINGS RADIANCE to my day:

*DidZ - you are "one of a kind"..I'm keeping you friend:)
*roBbie - for being too patient w/ me (hehe)..
*wYtwiTch - for understanding my "sumpong"..kahit sumpungin ka rin:P
*kAren - for the inspiring thoughts and comments, i admire your perceptions
*deeJa - for your pink hair (haha!)..here's more sunshine for your rainbow--LIFE:)
*woMANwithaBeautifulLife - your presence makes your life beautiful!..I am recommending her site to MY BLOGGER FRIENDS, take a peek:)
*WorthyME - making her realize that life is not OVER..never be afraid to face the bright sun every day, we are here to listen, have faith:)
*muSHY - smile!..everything will be fine, don't worry:)
*iantiE - Oh no! what should i say..ah..for taking care of didz' fish??..hehe..juz sharing the sunshine:)
*mooN - for "talks entertainment"..hey moon! more sunshine here!!..now, make your site land on bloggers!!
*roCky - continue being a blessing to other people :)
*i leave this last spot to all the wonderful persons i've met here in bloggers world..you all deserve this award

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..lousy addictus..


11:21:28AM marks the exact time Beanizer started this lousy post..

It's the 5th day of Febuary, year of metal tiger. Indeed this tiger is running so fast and me, being too lousy to survive a day is..is like a torture(?)..I can't even say the right word to describe it.

What could be a new thing to discuss..??..This is the worst-sweet effect of blog-addiction on me. Every time I find work boring and pissing, I put myself in front of this unknown-gender equipment, exploring the blogs I followed and messing the world where strangers seem like great spectators. I am not even a professional writer, why am I making this post anyway? Now, I'm confused with my attitude.

How long must this day torture me? I can't wait to watch Phineas and Ferb again on Disney. I need to play Plants vS Zombies. Oh no! I'm an addict. I remember last night when the technician-friend came, he asked to transfer the channel to HERO network for Anime marathon, I still insisted to stay on Disney. He laughed of course, I prefer Agent P(i wonder how to make that sound he does) than those mangas (did i say it right?), I can't even remember a name of any of them, I only remember one - Ajinomoto-but it's a food seasoning..oh well, I give up on them. Am i weird?? Maybe I need to visit that Hero channel for the sake of knowing my nephews' fave characters and prevent my nose from bleeding when they discuss those stuffs. Haist.

I guess I'm not just lousy, I'm becoming a bit crazy now discussing nonsense.
Sorry for the inconvenience readers..
Beanizer's system under repair.


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--my night class--



Yesternight was one of the best nights I had. I was enjoying like no tomorrow. It happened because of one person, my sweet baby, KiMi(see right), my 3-year old nephew. I admit it, I was really amazed of this kid's personality.

I was uploading pictures on FB when they arrived. I didn't mind him at first, until he drew closer to me and asked me in our own dialect.

Translated conversation:
KM: "(______), are the monsters still there in your computer?"
me: " Yup, do you want to play?"
KM: (nod)..
His mom: Kimi, you forgot something?
KM: "Good evening! (better late than never)
(he reached me, kissed my nose and sat on my lap)..
KM: "Are you afaid of the monsters,(__)?"
me: "No, but we have to eat dinner first so we can kill all of them."
KM: "But, aren't they going anywhere?"
me: (carrying him) "They're still sleeping, we'll wake them up later"


after dinner:
KM: "Let's wake the monsters"
me: "Later"
KM: "But,you promised"
me: "They need enough sleep"
KM: (dropped his face)
me: "Ok"


He sat on my lap while entering "The House of the Dead" (the game).
Everytime a dead man hit me, he would ask "You're not hurt, right?" and I would answer "No, they can't hurt us".
We played different games one after another. The most he enjoyed was "Plants vs Zombies"..I keep on telling him "We have to protect your house" while pointing the label "Kimi's House" each time it was displayed on screen. He was cracking when those zombies ate the bombs and explode. Though I feel annoyed sometimes when he asked unending WHYs and HOWs, I still ended up answering like a recorder.
When his mom told him they're going home, he immediately got off my lap.
The funny thing was when I tried to call him back:
me: "Look, we have new plants, come here"
KM: "It's already late, I'll see it tomorrow ok?"

I was shocked. It seemed like I was the 3-yo and he was the grown man.

For the nth time, I have proven to myself I am still a kid. A kid learning on other kids. The lessons he taught me last night:
1/ Promises are made NOT TO BE BROKEN.
2/ When someone hurts you, you should NOT PITY yourself.
3/ Old stuffs (like those games) CAN STILL make you happy.
4/ Never get tired of giving reasons so others CAN LEARN/UNDERSTAND.
5/ There's always TIME for everything.




~~BEANIZER~~the kid
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